Who Are you?

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Without going deeply into this age old question which can bring about life changing spiritual experiences, Who are you? Today, off the top of your head, do you have your own identity? It’s not an easy question. Are you a Caregiver, a mother/father, a husband/wife, a teacher, a salesperson, an employee or an entrepreneur? Maybe you think of yourself in terms of two or three titles. Do you define who you are by what you do with most of your time?

Many people define who they are by how they think other people see them. And so, they are that. Are you happy being that? If so, great. I hope you love what you do. Maybe you have a completely different side to you than what other people see. Is your vision of yourself what drives you to keep loving life? What are your interests? What inspires you? I hope you have a vision.

I really love writing and helping Caregivers get through one of the toughest jobs of their lives. But, it’s not who I am. I’m a storehouse of energy that enjoys a variety of life experiences, some great fun and others just more necessary. Necessary should not preclude the fun or inspirational. We all need to be reminded that life is wonderful if we allow it to be.

One of the ways I kept myself balanced and out of depression while I was a full-time Caregiver was to have ideas in mind of things that made me happy. Things that were mine alone to be interested in or experience. This is a way of remembering who you are. Of not losing yourself in your circumstances.

Besides reading, which is high on my list, I knew that I needed to get out and away, at least in small doses. For nearly four years I had arranged for two mornings a week, for three hours, and Sundays from noon to five to be away from my home and in a non-caregiving environment. Much of that time was spent grocery shopping, going to my own doctor/dentist appointments, etc., but I was able to fit in coffee with a friend or a meal out where someone was waiting on me. During this time away I would recharge. I would go to beautiful places because they made me feel good, like to a beach cafe for coffee so I could see the ocean, or lovely gardens that were designed to attract customers in a nursery, or a museum where I could walk among great paintings by famous artists. This would allow my energy, my light, to keep shining through to the surface. It was enough for me to keep perspective on my circumstances. It opened space for me to remember that what I was doing at home, for my husband, was the most important thing I could be doing right then, for us. My other experiences needed to be more mental right then, more visionary and dreamlike. Everything in good time.

Our circumstances are on the move even when it seems they’re standing still. Things are different this year than they were last, just think back. If you can think of yourself as separate from what you do, appreciate what you’re doing now and make time to recharge in your own special way, your energy and light will keep the fire glowing until the time is right for big change. You’ll be prepared and ready to move forward at all times. You’ll never have to say, “What do I do with myself now?”

Until soon, I wish you love and lots of energy!

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And the Answer is…

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Allow everything to be what it is and everyone to be who they are, including yourself. And deal with things accordingly. In any given situation things can move forward easily or we can choose to try to bend them to the ideal we have in mind. We can accept people based on how they behave and present themselves. Or, we can be angry that they aren’t doing what we think they should be doing, in a timeframe which we’ve decided is proper and in a manner we see as perfect. Do we ourselves do things in a way and in the timeframe that everyone else would see as perfect? Of course not, no two people observe the same reality. We don’t even see the color blue as the same blue. We are individuals, we’re human.

Managing our own lives, at best, is not always easy. Add to that, as Caregivers, we are managing the life of another, sometimes two. It can be a daunting task, especially if we haven’t developed the ability to step back from a situation and observe it for what it is. And we can all fall back into old habits and find ourselves in struggles before we know what hit us.

When we’re working against the natural flow of things, we become tired and have no energy. For me, it’s when my mood is not calm and optimistic. When I stop creating and can’t smile honestly. When that three way conversation is going on over and over again in my head. The one that argues with itself and then talks back with solutions that are strictly one sided. It’s a common theme. If it goes on long enough depression can set in. Our health can suffer. Now we’re the one who needs care.

How do we prevent this from happening? I believe we must learn to pause and choose. Pause before we disagree openly with anyone. Pause before we choose to be irritated or angry. Pause before we choose to show that person who didn’t show up on time how they’ve disrespected us. Pause before we argue with the person in our charge, especially one who may have dementia or is just too sick and can’t make the choice to control themselves. Pause and forget our ego that doesn’t want us to look weak or stupid in someone else’s eyes. Do you know how smart you will be to step aside from your ego? It’s the high road and you’ll learn to feel really good when you let the other person think whatever they want to think. If they are the problem, it’s theirs to work out not ours. We can choose to feel that terrible frustration that we know will result from our words and not get us anywhere. We can go where that knotted-up painful feeling is in the pit of our stomach again, or not. And is it really a fair fight if the person with whom you’re arguing is suffering from issues you’ve never even dealt with and can’t relate to?

Again, the answer is…let everything be what it is and everyone be who they are, including yourself. Pause before you decide to take the low road. Be generous with your humility and you’ll find harmony. You’ll be respected and have more peace in your life.

Until soon, I wish you love and harmony.

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Moving is a Big Deal!

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Summer is over and I’m getting lots of questions all of the sudden about moving elderly parents. Some are moving to assisted living facilities in different states to be near different family members, others are moving in with their children, while others are moving to a higher level of care. In all cases, expect a move of residence to have a noticeable effect on the emotions of your loved one, at least temporarily.

Usually, it’s just a matter of adjustment. As things settle in after a few weeks and new routine takes hold, a comfort level sets in. Sometimes, it is a bigger adjustment.

Involving your loved one in many details of the move, in my opinion, can be a mistake. It can cause anxiety and heart ache. It might set everyone involved on edge. Keep it simple and be very respectful. You might be sorry if you think they’ll feel better being involved. Test with a few questions and see what response you get. Does it make them happy to be involved or do they change the subject or get angry? It requires more patience, but you will have a much better experience and a happier outcome for all concerned if your mom/dad is not reminded constantly of details about a move they’re often not happy about in the first place. If it’s time for you, the caregiver, to be in charge, than gently take charge.

Make the decisions about what can be included in the move generously. Having as many familiar pieces of furniture and pictures around as possible can make a huge difference in anxiety level. If you’re moving from one town to another, is it possible to put some things in a storage place, costing maybe $100 for about a month, to see how things go? It could be money well spent and you’ll know in short time if some things are not missed or needed. When your mom says, where’s my tray table?, I need it so I can sit in front of the TV while I eat, you will be able to honestly say, it’s safe, we couldn’t bring it on the plane, but it’s coming. Think of the sadness you’d both feel if you had to tell her you gave it away. With that said, it’s not going to be a perfect situation no matter what you do. If you do your best, you’ll know it’s all that could have been done. And that is perfect.

On moving day, be compassionate. If possible, have family or friends take your loved one away from the commotion before it starts and keep them from seeing all their possessions being moved. It’s a very emotional experience that can, hopefully, be avoided. If it’s a long distance move, I’m sure there will be a competent loving person accompanying your loved one. Doing all the moving-in and arranging before they arrive will make it much easier on your mom/dad. They can move things around to their liking later, but you’ll save them from possible disorientation, confusion and maybe depression. Keep things simple and uncluttered whenever possible for less confusion.

In my experience, when the higher levels of care are required, as in cases of advanced Alzheimer’s patients, the confusion caused by new surroundings can be permanent. It’s a sign that the disease is advancing. The Caregiver now needs to be more aware. Expect the unexpected. If you’re managing your loved ones care, and they live in a separate residence, you’ll want to ask more questions of the staff about behavior and the level of interest in socializing. Understand that people are still very clever when elderly and always want to be in control of their own lives. We all do, it’s human nature. Wandering into other residents rooms and “borrowing things” is very common. The management of a facility will not be shocked if a watch or purse is missing. Hiding things of value and not remembering where they are happens to the best of us! Sometimes pictures are gone from a photo album and found in another’s room. It’s just that a wandering resident found them interesting. They can easily be returned. Patience and compassion goes a long way here. For more information on this subject, please read my past blogs: Alzheimer’s I & II.

As in everything involved in Caregiving, your own good judgement about the individual situation is the best you can bring to the table. You have resources, you’re not alone. Please feel free to ask me questions and send me your stories. I love hearing from you.

Until soon, I wish you love and compassion.

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By the Seat of Our Pants

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One of the most frustrating parts of being a Caregiver is that there are no instruction booklets for the most important moments we experience with the people we’re caring for. Those moments usually come upon us without warning. Suddenly one morning your elderly father (for example) is in a terrible mood. Nothing you do to make him more comfortable satisfies him. You check the usual things first; making sure he’s eaten enough, taken his pills and has water, pillows are in all the right places, his favorite TV program is on and his ear piece is working. Still he’s cranky or sad. He can’t really tell you what’s wrong. You ask questions and often get an “I don’t know” that’s accompanied by tears. Your practical mind wants to find a quick practical solution. If this is mental/emotional there is no quick answer or even a right one.

This is often a sign that there’s a lot going on mentally for him. We who are healthy and self-sufficient can’t possibly know what it’s like to be dependent on someone else for everything that goes on in our lives. I’m talking about dependent adults here, people who used to be in our position, taking care of others. They’re in the latter years of their lives and they know it. It is most likely an intense, often frightening time. Nothing is in their control and they can’t do a thing about it. How frustrating. Some have dementia, but not usually enough to keep them from having fears of the unknown. They think often of dying and don’t want to leave the people they love. I’ve heard that it occurs, but I’ve yet to meet someone who is near death that is ready to go. And I’ve lost five loved ones over the last eight years. They all struggled to stay alive as long as possible. Imagine the stress that is going on in ones body. Of course, it’s going to come out in any way it can find, as it should. And we need to be respectful and allow it to be released without trying to stifle it.

Many elderly people who are physically very ill still have minds that function as well as most younger people. My husband, my mother and my sister-in-law had very clear minds, aside from episodes caused by medications, till the day they died. My father, who had Parkinson’s, had some dementia for several years before his speech became so bad that it was almost impossible for him to tell us what he wanted to say. Yet, I could tell that his mind was working quite well in some ways because he would be trying to discuss complex or delicate issues. Lucidity would come and go, but he would amaze me with his judgement at times. My point is, we should never discount the mental acuity of people just because they are elderly and sick. They’ve lived longer than we have and they know more than we do about some things.

We need to give them space and time, too. Above all we need to be patient. Here’s where our intuition comes in, maybe we need to ask a few questions. If we’re careful enough we could ask questions that would help us understand if there were unfinished issues that are causing stress and need to be addressed in order to allow peace to take it’s place. I wanted my husband to be able to let go because he was suffering so much holding onto life. It was hard to see him so stressful. I wanted to know if there was something I could do to help him relax so I asked questions. Also, I asked if there were any things he felt were unresolved or that he wanted to tell me. I assured him there was nothing he could tell me that I couldn’t handle. I didn’t tell him why I was asking, just took advantage of an opportunity that seemed right. I, also, went down the line of all the people he was close to; his children, brother and so on. I gave him the opportunity to decide that he was good with everyone around him, or not. Your knowledge of the person you care for will help you know what might be a haunting issue, maybe you can bring it into the light, and therefore, relieve stress.

But, don’t press. Maybe they just need peace. Is their environment peaceful? If not, is there something you could do to fix that? Respect and peace seem most important here.

Until soon, I wish you love and harmony.

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Why Does It All Fall On One Person’s Shoulders?

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Responsibility seems to know where to fall, just like dust. It never misses. Have you noticed that you’re the one who recognizes when something needs to be done and does it? Have you wondered why other people, especially family members, seem to be oblivious to a loved ones needs? Have you felt like it always falls on your shoulders and resent that others, who should be aware, are avoiding a situation? Do you feel like they are selfish and inconsiderate?

Twice this week I’ve been asked how one should deal with siblings who are not helping take care of parents. It’s a common theme and important that Caregivers are clear about who they expect will be there to help them and who will not. It’s complicated! On one hand it’s best to have complete control and be the decision maker, yet it’s overwhelming at times and you can resent that there is no one helping relieve you of responsibility and tasks.

We can get lost in our own mire. Think of the only child who feels overwhelmed because all responsibility falls on them to take care of, sometimes two, ailing parents. Or, the one sister in a family who has three brothers who are off doing what men do and maybe throwing a few dollars at the situation. I met one man recently who had worked full time as an insurance salesman and raised three children by himself after his wife died when the children were young. He was a Caregiver if ever I saw one. Do you think he ever felt alone and wondered why? How about people who have children with learning disabilities and need to come up with a strategy to keep the family income flowing and bring the children up with the best care and most love they can possibly give? Will the person taking most care of the child or elderly person feel like they have the most difficult job in the family? Well, yes, at least at times. And, often it’s true. But, others will not always see that. They’re in different shoes.

To those who are feeling some resentment toward others who you feel are not contributing enough, I’ll make a suggestion. If it doesn’t work, then you’ll know you took the high road and did what you could before you let go. You might write a letter. This would be a nice letter, with no accusation and no threats. You would tell your sibling (for example) that you want to share what’s going on with your mother (for example) to make sure you’re keeping them informed. Tell them how she’s doing physically and mentally. You might tell them how often you’re taking her to doctors and what those doctors are telling you. You might tell them what the expenses are with which you could use some help, if that’s an issue. You could tell them how it’s working out for you and your family. Tell them what the tasks are and nicely suggest some ways that they might participate in the Caregiving. They probably haven’t thought of ways to help because you’re often the one who takes charge and they’re used to that. If asked, they might say, “Why didn’t you tell? I didn’t know.”

This type of letter could be written to anyone who you, the Caregiver, feels might need to know that you could use some help. You would close the letter by thanking them for anything they can do to help and let them know that you understand that they will do what they can. Then send the letter and let it go. Don’t sit around waiting for a response. You’ve done what you can. It wasn’t easy to write that letter. But, it was necessary. You don’t have to wonder any more where someone stands. They’ll either step-up or they won’t. You can now move on with clear understanding of your options.

One woman told me that her brother just throws money at the situation and doesn’t come to help. I said, “Wonderful.” How many of us would love to have more money coming in? Money helps, and he probably doesn’t have the nature to be very helpful if he was in the room full time. If he’s good at making money and he sends it, that’s a lot more than many others would do. Take some of that money and pay someone to come in and relieve you. Maybe he could pay you enough that you could quit your job for a while. That would be a big help.

We’re not all cut out to take care of others and too many cooks spoil the soup. If one sister lives locally and can manage to care for an aging parent, the other siblings should be contributing to the extent that they can. If they make phone calls often to keep dad’s spirits up, if they send packages so he has a nice surprise in the mail, it goes a long way. Maybe they can contribute money to ease the burden on the Caregiver and let him/her know how much they’re appreciated. They could send a gift to the Caregiver to say thank you once in a while. That REALLY goes a long way. They should ask what is needed and how they can help. That’s what thoughtful family members would do. They should, they should, but they often don’t. You’ve got to let it go.

Others don’t often do much and don’t contribute. Or, there are no siblings or anyone else to help. What are you going to do? You could sit around and feel sorry for yourself. You could make yourself sick enough that someone, even a stranger would have to step in and take the situation in hand. You could be an angry nagging miserable person who pushes everyone away and in the course defeats their own purpose. Any of these will just make you sick. If you start resenting your Caregiving you’re only doing yourself a huge disservice. When you make yourself sick, you wind up spoiling your own life and all the opportunities that are out there if you can just manage your situation with intelligence and grace.

Try to observe yourself from a distance and see that you’re meant to be in the position you’re in. It’s one of life’s challenging times, again! Isn’t that what life is all about? One challenge after another. Someone once said, “Even winning the lottery every week would become boring after a while.” You’ve been handed an opportunity to shine. To shine as the best Caregiver ever. You can accept it with grace by getting up every morning and doing what comes next without even thinking about whether it should be any different. It isn’t, at least not right now, and you’re going to be rewarded. You’re going to be stronger and more self-confident than you’ve ever been in your life as time goes on, because that’s what comes from being one who does a job well. That’s going to benefit you strongly down the road.

So switch your focus, do what will be helpful and move past all the annoying frustrations. What makes you happy? What makes you smile? That’s the thing to focus on. What are your dreams and how could you put something into motion that would take you a little closer to them? Don’t tell me you’re too tired and it’s impossible to dream. That’s just the noise inside your head that’s talking to itself. It’s not the you who knows something about yourself that no one else knows. I know, because I’ve been there. It’s when you allow those moments of your dream idea to pop into your head, while you’re cooking or giving someone a bath, that the task at hand becomes easier. You get through it faster and you get a little closer to your dream, too. Dreams are ideas and we bring them closer to our reality by imagining them to already exist. You will feel lighter and be more giving and compassionate if you dream big and often.

The person you’re caring for is having their own challenge right now and it’s a lot bigger deal than yours. You are helping them through their journey. They are helping you through yours. You’re in this dance together. Don’t disappoint them or yourself. Love and creativity will always get you through.

Until soon, I wish you lots of love and creativity!!

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